Alcohol and Transvestism

by Madeleine (5-N-5 FPE)

Are you going to have a hangover in the morning? Or is it now morning and you are suffering with a hangover? This article is primarily for you if you answer yes to either one of the above questions. If you can answer no, read on in the event you have a friend that you might be able to help.

I am a transvestite and probably one of the luckier ones, as I have a wife that has known my problem for eleven years and at this point I shall add, she has not only known of this, but has un- derstood and accepted it much better than I did until about two months ago, when I started to grow up. When I use,growup here I do not mean as a transvestite, I mean as an adult who has fin- ally emerged from adolescence, because two short months ago I was still very immature.

You see, I would get the desire to express myself as a trans- vestite, but whether I would or not would have no bearing what- soever on what would follow. Not having considered that all of us have both a feminine and masculine side I would be overcome by a feeling of guilt and would resort to alcohol to cover it. Re- acting normally to over indulgence, I generally became quite ob- noxious or ridiculous depending on the mood I happened to be in.

Let me try to clarify the above two moods by starting with the obnoxious. First I would become quite overbearing and ex- tremely intelligent, the latter only in my own mind. I knew everything. Of course, this has led to both giving and receiving a punch in the nose on occasion. When the bars closed I would head for home, walk in and, to prove how masculine I was, I would generally awaken my wife and let her know that I had a snootful and with the use of language that was not in the least warranted, insist that what I did was my own business and ask

26.